content warning: eating disorders
She passed her youth
helium breasted
coated in a slick
of ultra violet gloss.
Blonde with a vomit ombre.
Jubilant
with fingers laced and bound
in ribbons and knots of
stomach lining.
Discovering the world
through a checklist of toilet bowls.
Cultivating her mind,
painting porcelain
carrot - orange
blood - red
Noting oily glimmers
in shimmering saliva pools.
She loved through a veil
of a minty camouflage.
Teeth clashing kisses backed with
crumbling molars.
And then her
womb crowded,
pressing up against
the concaved shreds
of broken stomach.
Roly poly babies,
filling her heart
with their doughy leg folds
and full faced adoration
for a woman she now
despised.
She pours lavender under
thundering taps
before excavating acid hot hate
over aged, calloused knuckles.
Silences the roar of
taps and thoughts.
Unlocks the door.
Gathers her children for bathtime.
Michelle Davey (she/her) is a radio presenter and writer from London. She blogs as The Cockney in the Countryside and is a mother of 3 and autism advocate. Instagram: @thecockneybloggirl
Twitter: @cockneybloggirl