This Fear Called Myself by Chad W. Lutz
CW: Suicide

I tried to kill myself
three years ago
but none of that
matters anymore
the binge eating
the arm cutting
the bad talking
the cardinals in
the trees sing
my triumphs
for the whole
world to hear
you don’t have
to look back
until next year
the birds tweet
a sound moving
farther & farther away
on a new tepid wind
a trust in old processes
to finally calm
this fear
called myself
Chad W. Lutz is a speedy, non-binary writer born in Akron, Ohio. They graduated from Mills College in Oakland, California, with their MFA in Creative Writing in 2018. Their first book, For the Time Being, is available through J. New Books.