(c/w: eating disorder)
I can finally vomit up the cheese pizza I once
Bought and ate to satisfy the hunger of
A thousand
Resisted opportunities.
And, I can finally admit I was trying to
Fill the void created by a thousand
Self-defeating choices –
Puréed to aid digestion, but spat out again.
And, I can finally forgive myself, for naively believing
The world would be more than a sieve – that I’d have to
Avoid slipping through, while
Learning not to resent others for doing the same.
Samantha Terrell, author of Vision, and Other Things We Hide From (Potter's Grove Press) is a widely published American poet whose work emphasizes self-awareness as a means to social awareness. Her poetry can be found in many fine publications. She writes from her home in upstate New York. Find her online at: SamanthaTerrell.com.