Regurgitation by Samantha Terrell

(c/w: eating disorder)

I can finally vomit up the cheese pizza I once

Bought and ate to satisfy the hunger of

A thousand

Resisted opportunities.

And, I can finally admit I was trying to

Fill the void created by a thousand

Self-defeating choices –

Puréed to aid digestion, but spat out again.

And, I can finally forgive myself, for naively believing

The world would be more than a sieve – that I’d have to

Avoid slipping through, while

Learning not to resent others for doing the same.

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Samantha Terrell, author of Vision, and Other Things We Hide From (Potter's Grove Press) is a widely published American poet whose work emphasizes self-awareness as a means to social awareness. Her poetry can be found in many fine publications. She writes from her home in upstate New York. Find her online at: SamanthaTerrell.com.