CW: Violent Imagery
at nineteen i got the fear of being pushed in front of an incoming subway train
i took precautions, stayed very still held my breath watched the yellow dots
some guy told me it was a twisted desire
like the private hope it would happen
or, the urge to hurt others spun into the opposite direction
don't know why i said nothing
a few years down the line it made the papers
total lamb got pushed
by a total stranger
whoosh
Barbara Genova (she/her/they) is the pen name of a public person who changed her mind. Poetry written as Barbara has been published / is forthcoming at The Daily Drunk, surfaces.cx, Anti-Heroin Chic. She can be found on Twitter @CallGenova and on Instagram @thebarbaragenova